Troubling me...

Lately, My best friend has a boyfriend now... I remembered I cried over it so many times because, I thought he was taking her away from me, replacing me, and all that shit. He is a Innapropiate guy, and I think he's curious about sex, I can see that he's trying to control himself or whatever. He can NEVER stop talking about my best friend, how SPECIAL she is, and how sexy she is, not to mention she turns him on >_>. P.S. They are French Kissing... Any more than that, and I'll take him to his grave.

Me and him are friends, I met him in 6th period and I introduced him to her... We were like twins, I ended up liking him, and then Now I learn that he likes my best friend from the first day of school. I felt sad >_>... But a few days later... I decided to accept it. I stopped liking him, I couldn't believe I liked him anyway.

Hard accepting it when your surrounded by shit. The things I go through with them... You know how jealous I am to her?

My room looks like shit, while hers is clean, I'm not athletic because I'm fucking fat, she is rich, she has both parents (my dad died when I was 6), and she has a boyfriend, 

She has someone to tell her how special and beautiful everyday... It's sad because... All the guys want the skinny girls and pretty faces, I don't have that... I'm chubby, and just annoying, I scare guys away, it's bullshit. I don't think I'll ever find anyone who would accept me for who I am... 

But Me and her talk, I am important to her as she is important to me, she was the one who broke me out of my shell.

I had a crazy-ass dream just now, Flame Princess turned human in that dream, I remember XD.

But I remember in that dream, I cried over My best friend's relationship once again because, I learned they had sex. They told me not to worry about it, and I just became ape shit crazy angry and sad.

... I'll see what happens now...